Feeling alone then it's time for you escape

Life moves swiftly. Growth still waiting to be seen, pushing, moving through you deeply and fully. Fear and confusion allows to be seen, heard, and felt. The power so invading, sometimes it's hard to see. Stories your body is trying to tell you but you have a hard time listening, again invasion of fear and confusion. The feeling of discomfort for falling victim to the darkness, somewhere the demons sit and wait. Moments of breathless heartache, feeling inadequate, unloved, and alone. Forgetting where you came from. Forgetting to ask for help.
In the swift movements of memories we often forget to slow down and enjoy the moment. Feeling robbed of enjoyment because there is just never enough time to do everything on that list. 
Time to escape away, it is time for a new perspective, a light leading you out of the darkness. Somewhere for silence to be found without searching. Finding a place to let go and just BE. 
Life was running together, I couldn't get away from the dishes, the laundry, and the lists. Oh those long lists of things waiting for me each and everyday. Another thing gets added daily. I'm grateful to escape.
Escape into the mountains where breathing felt easy and silence filled the space inside my mind. Children feeling free and less dependent, searching for the mystery mother nature hides within the wood. Flowers to see, smell, and touch. A beautiful site to enjoy. 
Escaping only to be found and taught lessons of growth. Days filling with millions of moments that we can only be grateful for. Knowing we were given such a beautiful gift called home that takes us deep within ourselves and finally slow down enough to see that we are surrounded by beauty and love and that we too were created out of beauty and love. 
Finally slowing down enough to understand that there is no need for fear or confusion. If we just quiet our selves we can hear the messages of the universe. While in the mountains we enjoyed a beautiful Eagle and her medicine she offered to us. 
This Eagle sits quietly perched on the tallest tree, waiting, looking, focusing. Swooping down to receive the fish that was given to her, her wings gliding smoothly, perfectly. I watch her fly to her young baby and feed him. She is teaching this baby her ways. Not only would she take food to him but would have him fly to her. There was so much beauty in this swift moment and it was a gift to me to be able to witness such beauty.
An Eagle's medicine is powerful, magical, strong, and honest. We are reminded to take a new view on the challenges that we are facing. These birds are messengers to the spirits. 

"Eagle is also linked with courage. To give up our limited perspectives, to release ourselves from comfortable, familiar thought patterns, even when they don't appear to be working, and fly into a larger world requires that we are brave enough to enter unknown realms. This is further emphasised by Native American and Celtic tales, of shamans and druids who shapeshifted into eagles. " --Ina Woolcot 

Eagle medicine is EXACTLY what I needed to get through the challenges of my everyday life. I am so grateful to be able to spend time out in nature and talking with the universe. 
Nature heals our soul. If you can't escape for days, go for a walk. There is a message there waiting for you. Listen, allow to be, feel, and see what you need to know. It can be in a flower, a child, tree. Escape and allow for spirit, the universe to speak to you. 

Om~Monday: Global Meditation for Peace with Gabby Bernstein, Deepak Chopra, and Indie Arie

There is so much ugliness going on in the world and it is time to come together and connect in a way that will help change the world.
I will be joining Gabby Bernstein, Deepak Chopra, Indie Arie and SO MANY MORE on August 8th for a global meditation for PEACE!
We often feel so helpless and most of us just try not to think about all the evil that is going on and to be honest I think that is just as bad. Ignoring the problem just because you feel helpless is not the answer.

Join the GLOBAL MEDITATION! Sign Up here!!
Check out Gabby's Website HERE she has tons of information on meditation! and she's just a really fun person to follow! <3 

Om~Monday: setting intention with meditation

When I was thinking about what I wanted to share with this post, I immediately thought of prayer. Which then led me to the search for the difference between prayer and meditation. In my search I found words from Deepak Chopra.

AHH! I see! I had figured they were pretty much the same thing. During prayer I am always setting an intention.  I am asking for blessings as well as being grateful for all that I have been blessed with. So then I thought how can I set intention with meditation and it occurred to me that I could easily do this. 
I know a lot of people don't pray because of it's huge tie to religion. If we just REMOVED religion from this and thought of prayer as intention then I think we would find a lot more people sending out strong vibrations of beautiful intentions. Avery close loved one makes it very clear that they do not pray because they do not believe in God, which is TOTALLY fine but I feel that the world is missing those massive vibrations of love sitting stagnant in their heart. You don't have to worship a "god" to pray. Pray to the earth, the moon... pray in behalf of your heart. Replace prayer with intention. 

It is during meditation that we are found in such in a beautiful state of mind and this is when we are closest to our divine spirit wouldn't now be the best time to have a prayer? 
There is so much hatred and ugliness going on in the world right now that I just couldn't help but want to set an intention of peace out into the universe and I wanted to know how to do it in the best way that I could. 
I found another great article by Deepak Chopra. He is the KING of meditation I swear. I always find great advice when reading his quotes ( I have yet to read one of his books but IT WILL HAPPEN)
His article is a great and you can go here to read it. 
I'm just going to cover the basics but you can get more detail out of that article. 
Know your intention. First of all I think it's really important that you know what intention you are wanting to set so that you can go into your meditation knowing what you are desiring to send out into the universe. Maybe even have a little statement or prayer you can say. "I ask for Peace and Love to surround those that are suffering at this time". Your intention can be anything.
Center yourself. This is so important in meditation! Take a few deep breaths, you could actually do the exercise I posted two mondays ago. (read here) Let this last for as long or as little as you would like.
Release into the Universe. While in this beautiful and rested state of mind release your prayer out into the universe. Focus on what you want to manifest and let it go. 
Detach yourself from any desired outcome.  I know that I cannot go and hug every single person out there who is hurting and I understand that some may not feel any comfort during these hard times but just my little intention that I brought with me into my meditation will have an affect on many. There is nothing more powerful than the vibration of love. And this is exactly what we want to be sending out into the universe. 
Let the Universe do her job. When we can detach ourselves from what WE THINK needs to happen we can accept what truly needs to be done. We don't always know the reasons for things but we have to believe and have faith that there is a reason for all of this. There is something greater waiting for us and we need to allow for the universe to do this part for us. Everything is of Love. We need to rest our spirits in the divine love. Allowing for things to happen with divine timing. 

Namaste and Peace be with you! 

Om~Monday: Feeling Stressed? Time to get silent.

Life can get crazy... am I right?  Feeling stressed and over-worked is just a regular part of the day, some days this stress is frequent and on other days its a breeze. Then there are the days that you just can't escape stress and it isn't just one day.. it continues onto the next and then the next and so on. Before you know it, you are spiraling down a big black hole and you just can't seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel. 
I've been here, on multiple occasions, I understand the power that stress can have over you. 
BUT I also know how to get OUT. 
It is time for you to get SILENT. 
Meditation is your answer.
I promise that if you take at least 20 minutes of your day and practice meditation, your life will change immensely. The light at the end of that dark black hole will start to shine brighter. You will be able to work through your schedule of chaos. You will breathe a lighter breath. You will be able to stand a little taller. You will begin to know how to solve all those problems that keep on coming up for you. You will find joy in the mundane that life often brings. 
I understand that we are all at different places in our lives. For me, I am a stay/work at home mother and wife, we have three children (one being 3 weeks old) and life can definitely get crazy. Maybe for you, there are no children or husband, but you have a tiring work schedule or maybe asshole co-workers. Maybe you are attending school and you have tests and projects. There is a mix of us doing a ton of different things but one thing we have in common is that stress often prevails. Also it's often that our life becomes dull, tedious, and all we have is worry and STRESS. 
Let's figure this shit out.
I can hear you saying... "I'm so busy, I don't have 20 minutes to set aside for meditation." I call bullshit we can always find a little extra time. If you are reading this then you definitely have a few minutes to spare. (Although, I'm super stoked you are spending your time with me...) 
For this next week I challenge you to 10-20 minutes of sitting quietly by yourself... MEDITATING. 
Not sure HOW to meditate. In the next few weeks I'm going to share with you some tips and different ways of meditation but for now I'm going to give you a few basics so that you don't feel entirely lost.
First of all. YOUR MIND IS GOING TO WANDER. This is okay, when you notice that you've moved away from focusing on your breath just say to your self "back to breath" and then inhale deep and continue on. You'll probably find yourself saying this MULTIPLE times for the first while. TOTALLY NORMAL. Meditation, like anything, takes practice. I still wander off into the crazies (thoughts that lead to thoughts that lead to thoughts) but I've learned to pull myself back.
Here are some basic breathing tips--

• inhale deep through your nose
• relax your tongue on the roof of your mouth right behind your front teeth
• exhale deep while pushing down and out through your stomach

Counting your breaths is an EASY and well-known way to meditate. If you only have 5 minutes to spare then start with only 5 minutes but each day try to add a little more time and get yourself to at least 20 minutes.

I've found that early in the morning, during nap time, or late evenings before bed are the best times for me. Look into your schedule and figure out a good time to set aside, a time without any interruptions. 

This is just the beginning. I don't want this post to go ON and ON and ON... and I don't want to give all you beginners too much to worry about. This exercise isn't supposed to cause MORE STRESS... it's supposed to free you from all of that yuckiness. 

I'd love to know how you did. Was this hard for you? How did you feel afterwards? Were you able to get to 20 minutes? 

A Summer Solstice Birth: Fenton's Birth Story

This Summer Solstice was one I'll never EVER forget. It was on this day that our little Fenton Tyler Brown decided to join our family earth side.  This is His birth story.  A little more nervous this time because I knew what to expect, but I also had forgotten the details of how intense it really was. June 20th, ( Friday night) the contractions were constant and about 7minutes apart. This is it, I thought, we are finally going to meet our little baby. The kids were tucked in bed and I had asked my doula to come by and talked to my midwife who would be on her way as soon as she could. Well... what do you know... as soon as my doula, Xylina showed up my contractions subsided and faded away. I got back in bed and was half slept as the contractions deepened and then morning came... no baby. I was bummed and totally felt bad that I had called Xylina and Dana for nothing.  I spent Saturday (which was also Summer Solstice) with my girlies and husband relaxing. For most of the day I went and laid on my bed turned on some relaxing music and slept and meditated while my body surged, relaxed, and surged. The contractions weren't painful but intense and when I was laying in my bed listening to music I could really enjoy them. They came in waves and it was nice to just let my body go with the flow. With each new wave I reminded myself that I was opening up and that soon I would meet my little baby. I would remind myself that my body was designed to do this work and that it was going to be beautiful. I spent the day in and out of bed sleeping, relaxing, eating, and contracting. It was nice to have Jordan there to take care of the kiddos while I rested for the night ahead of me. Tonight would be the night. We sent the girls to Linda's for a sleep over so that we wouldn't have to worry about them waking up, we could just do what was needed to be done to get this little one here. Around 9:00 the contractions became so intense I couldn't do anything but moan through them, trying to balance out that energy and it so works.. making a deep sound made it easier. We decided that it was now time to get Xylina and Dana here. They both arrived at the same time and it was perfect timing. Everything was starting to begin. I was nervous but so ready, I had spent the day really preparing myself.  I had a birthing tub ready to go if I wanted it but I never felt the need to fill it up, I had really enjoyed my bed during the day and felt like I would be most relaxed there. I continued to lay in bed as the contractions picked up, Jordan by my side (who actually fell asleep for a little bit) and Xylina sitting right next to me and talking me through each contraction. It is THE BEST IDEA to have a Doula! I swear. She just took my mind off of everything and helped me focus on deepening and opening and trusting my body. After a while laying in my bed I needed to go pee so we headed on into the bathroom and this is when it got serious. Not only did I need to pee but I was definitely ready to open completely up. I remember thinking I can't do this... I can't do this.. and Xylina was there reminding me that it was going to feel intense and a little crazy but that I SO CAN DO THIS! She helped me let go of everything and then it was time to push.. I could feel the urges and I didn't want to move away from the toilet BUT I also didn't want to deliver my baby UMMM on the toilet. Dana reassured me that where ever I felt comfortable I would be fine. After a few pushes on the toilet I decided that I wanted to be somewhere else. I don't think I hardly had my eyes open for any of this I just remember being on my toilet and then I had moved back onto my bed. Here we go, I got up on all fours and moaned this baby right out of me. My water broke as I did this. I remember feeling the baby right there ready to come out and then slipping back, and then I felt the baby's head and then a few more pushes and out came baby. Jordan was able to do the catching and after he caught the baby I looked around to him, forgetting about EVERYTHING that had just happened and just being so excited to know what we had. "What is it!?!? What did we have!?!?" I asked him. "A BOY!" He said. We were both SOOOO pumped! He then handed me the baby and I sat down got all comfortable and cozied with this new little bundle of joy.  Fenton Tyler Brown was born at 11:26pm on 2014 Summer Solstice, weighing 7lb 4oz and was 19inches long. 

Again, I was very pleased with having my baby at home, surrounded by the beauty and love of his family. It was relaxing and peaceful here I wouldn't have wanted it any other way! So... 4 days later and my body is healing like a champ and little "F-Bomb" or "F-Dawg" as Jordan refers to him or "Buddy" that Lexi and Eva call him and AKA "my Fenton baby" is as pink as he can get, he loves his momma's boobies and his sleep.  I am feeling so blessed that we have him here to complete our family. A little boy is just what this family needed! Welcome little one. 

Inspirational: The Alternate Routes--Nothing More

I absolutely LOVE this song so much. The words just lift my heart and spirit. It is the perfect song to take me out of a grumpy mood and to remember---  WE are LOVE.  WE are ONE. We are PEACE.  We are WAR.  We are how we treat each other and nothing more.
The Alternate Routes -- Nothing More

Hope you all are having a wonderful Monday! 

Full Moon in Sagittarius

art by Susanne Shuenke

I am in love with the energy that comes with a full moon. At times I can feel really drained, and then there are times that I am SUPER energized but in all that comes there is a place where I sit and am able to reflect on the past month--where I've gone, what I've learned. I make sure I set time aside to step inward and enjoy what each full moon has to teach. It has become a routine for me to visit certain teachers that help me understand whats happening in the stars and to help me look within. And I've loved everything I've read, listened to, and experienced. HUGE BONUS is that it is all free and you can have access to this amazing information just as easily! 
Full Moons are time to sit and be with what has already shown up for you and to accept all that has arrived and taught. Time to be in a place within your own self, and to be understanding of YOUR unique journey. A perfect time to take in all that you have been given. 
The Full Moon was in Sagittarius a time to get honest with yourself and with the path that you are on. I wanted to share with you the THREE people that I go to when I want to know what kind of energy to expect for the Full Moon and to experience the moon at her fullest.
The first place I go is to KV (Aquarius Nation) for her videos or written horoscopes for the full moons. I go to this chick DAILY to check in with whats going on around us and I am in love with her positive outlook on this beautiful Earth life and has so many great GREAT and wise words of wisdom to share.  Here's her Video

The second favorite place of mine is Mystic Mamma who posts little bits and pieces of all these WONDERFUL astrologists! It's great place for so much insight! You can check her page out as well!

Mystic Mama
The last... (but DEFINITELY NOT LEAST) person I go to is Athena, the Sage Goddess! She holds these BEAUTIFUL Full Moon rituals connecting hundreds together on a journey of self exploration. You can attend a live event or visit at a later time if it isn't convenient for you. After each ritual I feel rejuvenated and leave with so much inspiration and insight to my own being. My heart is full and my body tingles with the magic that is inspired in this space. If you are into rituals or curious at all You need to check out this beautiful lady! I'm sending you to her facebook but you can also visit her website here.
Athena the Sage Goddess

Have fun with this energy and don't get too caught up in everything you THINK you should be doing. Allow yourself to FEEL and have fun with the person you are TODAY in this moment in this Full Moon in Sagittarius! 

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A Divine Message: the Dragonfly

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The other day I was out on my porch staring off into the beauty of a wonderful sunny day, it was quiet, and warm. I felt something touch my shoulder, I quickly checked it out making sure it wasn't a spider and saw a beautiful dragonfly a few seconds later another flew by and then another and another. For the next few moments our front yard had 5 or 6 dragonflies swooping down and around and then away. It was beautiful.
Maybe you are a believer of magic maybe you are not but this was magical and to me this was a beautiful message from the Universe, something Divine just for me in this exact moment. All my life I've been a believer in the secret world of the unknown. It's the child in me that comes out when little messages are delivered. They brighten my whole day! 
It's hard to always "see" these messages, you have to be on the watch out. This all could have happened right in front of me and if I had not been paying attention I would have missed everything. And the saddest part of that is missing out on the feeling that comes with these messages. For me, they are overwhelmingly joyful and full of so much love. I am physically moved and feel as if I were just instantly given a hug. 
I believe there is Divine meaning in everything that we do. Little secrets here and there guiding us, and keeping us on the path of our sacred contract (what we are here on earth to accomplish). I also feel that so many have allowed the fast paced, busy life, take up our moments and swallow them whole leaving us feeling lost, drained and unaware of what is truly going on in our lives. Time takes away our little moments of joy that are supposed to leave us with clues. Time hides this away and leaves us feeling rushed and having never enough enjoyment in our lives. 
This was moment of mine lasted maybe MAYBE 2 minutes. TWO MINUTES! And it filled me with so much happiness that I forgot about the dirty details of the day like my laundry, my dishes, the endless amount of housekeeping and allowed me to feel LOVED and left me with a clue that I was where I needed to be at that exact moment to receive a message that affirmed that I was INDEED on the right path. 
For me, I follow the native medicine cards when it comes to earth medicine and divine messages. I have the medicine card book that I often rummage through and I also love going to this website to read about the different totems and spirit animals. 
The Message I received: You are in transformation and making little changes here and there that are for the betterment of your spirit. Don't allow illusions and yucky habits keep you from finding the beauty in the simple acts of change. Know you are working towards something great. Believe in YOU. 
Out of 1440 minutes in a WHOLE day. There are 2 of those minutes that I can actually recall and they meant the whole world to me. I wasn't LOOKING for this message but I was OPEN to this message. I was allowing myself to slow down and pay attention. 

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These moments happen more and more often for me as I'm beginning to trust in the Universe to guide me. They happen more often when I take the time to BREATH and just Be. 
My Challenge for you is to slow down a little bit. Don't be in too much of a hurry, so that you are missing out on those little life clues and all the magic that is happening right in front of your eyes? The messages are everywhere, always, constant. Because these are messages of love and support. 
PS. A few days after my dragonfly incident I received a BEAUTIFUL card in the mail from my Mother and on the front was.... a dragonfly. Just a little affirmation to me once again.  

Inspirational: Kellee Maize

I absolutely LOVE this chick. I just barely found out about her. She's been doing her thing for a few years now and I am just excited to hear her music. It is SO MUCH MORE than just music. Listen to her words!! She definitely knows whats UP!  She is definitely INSPIRING! Here are three videos that I really LOVED and are FILLED WITH SO MUCH TRUTH!  Check her out! 

Google Female Rapper

"Give & let live.Grow & let go. Be & set free.   Don't know, but let it flow.All ONE, but not the same."

Dance with Lightening

" Take action, seek sight. We are going to WIN this fight. 

   I'll die for the world to get right."

Frack Track 

 I can't even explain how important it is to watch this one! I don't even have words. WE ARE KILLING OUR MOTHER. And MOST of us are completely unaware.. or too greedy to care! Shame on the human race!

A Divine Song

A lady I had just met at my Unity Church told me a story, it was the most beautiful story. She had noticed that I was going to have a baby (how could she not). She lightly patted my arm and with a warm smile she told me about a tribe in Africa. She said that whenever there is a pregnant woman in their tribe, all of the other women gather together and sit and listen for the growing baby's song. When they hear this song they begin to sing to the womb, as does the mother, children, family and friends. After the child is born they continue to sing. This song becomes a piece of them. It is unique and for especially for them. When the child misbehaves they take him/her to the center of the tribe and EVERYONE sings their song to them. This is to remind them who they are, and that they are loved.

I absolutely LOVED this story and it made me think. How smart are these beautiful people, to have known how to find the baby's song and sing to them from the womb. What a special gift, to have the people around you be so in love with you, that every time you do something that doesn't match up with your values, and in such a beautiful way, remind you of who you are and where you come from. A simple song that was created from a heart beat.

I think that all of us have a song within us. Although, we didn't have a beautiful tribe sing to us as we grew and remind us when we would make mistakes, but deep inside of us you'll find a melody that co-exists with our soul. This melody is our beauty, our love, our gift to the world. We need to sit, listen and hear this melody. There is nothing more important right now than our song.  We need our song to remind us of how strong and beautiful we are. We need to be reminded constantly of our gifts and that we are connected to something bigger than just this body. We are connected to a divine energy that flows through us and out into the world.  THE WORLD NEEDS OUR SONG. So sing my love birds.

Remembering Maya Angelou

This Woman who gave so much of her heart will be admired for generations to come.  She spoke of Courage, Strength & of Love. She taught us about the important things in life.
Thank You Maya Angelou for being the woman that you were and for inspiring to many to follow in your foot steps! You will be FOREVER REMEMBERED in so many hearts!

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This is One SPECIAL LADY!
"One isn’t necessarily born with courage, but one is born with potential. Without courage, we cannot practice any other virtue with consistency. We can’t be kind, true, merciful, generous, or honest."

"If you don’t like something, change it. If you can’t change it, change your attitude."

"I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."
-Maya Angelou

Inspirational: Papaoutai by Stromae

While watching this video I became mesmerized. First of all I loved how their communication was through dance! That right there was pretty freaking awesome. And isn't that such a truth. Here we are as parents trying to raise our children how to dance in this crazy world. There are moves that need to be made, but you can't just tell your children how to do these moves. You must know how to live them, speak them, create them. Teaching someone a dance is done by example, it is a partnership, there must be communication and action.You must first learn to dance your very own dance and allow for the child to learn and then dance in their own beautiful way. They take what you have discovered and mastered and in return create masterpieces of themselves.

Isn't it too often that even though we are right there at home, we can allow for other things to distract our attention. This poor boy is doing whatever he can think of to help grasp the attention of his father but the father never moves. His body is present but tall he important things are missing. There is no communication, no examples, no dance moves and after a while the son begins to loose the beautiful and unique moves that already existed and then becomes lost in the trance.

I feel it is so important that we dance, we show our children that life is beautiful, challenging, ever-changing, but always in motion creating new and exquisite masterpieces. It is our responsibility to show our children what we are made of. Show them who we are and the beauty that fills each one of us. Our life is our dance, our expression, our art. How dare us get lost in the trance never taking a moment to enjoy the movement and flow that is ever so inspiring and majestic. How dare we allow for our children to become a victim to the mundane that life can become.

I love in the video that the boy goes out and he dances alone. He already had his moves all along. They were unique and his.  He had his own dance played out and then after he had tried all that he felt he could, his moves faded and his talents were gone hidden inside the trance.

We are filled with divine dance moves waiting to be expressed. Talents waiting to be witnessed. Let us not rob our children of such magic. Get out there and dance.

**Here is the translation if you would like to know what they are saying. The video speaks for itself, no words needed but I liked knowing what was being said.**

   Tell me where he's from Finally I'll know where I'm going Mommy says when you really look for something You always end up finding it.
   She says he's never very far That he very often goes to work Mommy says working is good Much better than having bad company/guidance Isn't that true? 
   Where is your daddy? Tell me where is your daddy! Without even needing to tell him, He nows what's going wrong. Right huh daddy! Tell me where you're hidden! It must be at least a thousand times I've counted my fingers 
   Where are you? Daddy where are you? Where are you? Daddy where are you? Where are you? Daddy where are you? Where are you? where are you Daddy where are you? (repeat) 
   What, believe it or not There'll be a day where we won't believe it anymore A day when we're all be a dad And from one day to the next we'll be gone

   Will we be detestable? Will we be admirable? Gene-givers or geniuses? Tell us who makes irresponsible people Hey tell us who, yeah Everybody knows How to make babies But nobody knows How to make daddys 
   Mister know-it-all inherited that, yeah right. Must we suck him out of our thumb or what? Tell us where it's hidden, It must be… At least a thousand times we have bit our fingers Where are you? Daddy where are you?

Memorial Day: peace will come

Honoring Memorial Day today. Although I do not believe in war, it is a part of our world and I want to honor those who have given their lives to serve this country. Sending my love to those who have lost loved ones as well. 

Introduction: Just Be With Me

This space right here is a quiet space as well as very loud. I am passionate and with each new lesson this life hands me I am finding that my voice gets louder. I am standing in my confidence no longer feeling the fear. I am liberated, free from the voices that have kept me small. There's peace in my world please don't confuse this with perfection. I am raising strong women all the while raising myself. Being taught through the absence of ego, although the shadow shows herself often.  Again, I am liberated in the sense of awake, conscious of this universe and the reveal of her infinite space.

Don't label me, allow me to BE. Get to know me through my words and this journey. I expose greatness and I have so much to say. Moving past and beyond the years of insanity, I no longer am threatened by the voice of another and most importantly I am no longer threatened by the voice of my own. I have declared love as my religion and only allow this light. When darkness creeps I step down but stand tall and allow for MY lightness to shine.

Mistakes have been made and will continue to do so but that is where you'll find all of my growth. Trust in my friendship because it is true and it is of love. I know I am here importantly, and in this lifetime I know that I am to be a guide. To whom? I know not, but I know they are waiting patiently.

For the past year I've sat in silence, growing, deciding, confused, and dedicated. Patiently waiting myself, for the divine to tell me to produce. I've been known to pounce and skip steps that have taken me beyond what I can handle, in this I've been reminded that I must go back and to walk the path with smaller steps, baby steps please. Wait. Be. Stillness. A quiet mind was the lesson then and the lesson for my future. I am not alone, my divine friend is with me always. She reminds me of my beauty my greatness and allows me to hear her voice through messages secretly spoken from the Universe.

I dance with the Virgo Moon and I live by the Libra Sun. I am here, alive, and full of love. I am an Indigo, a gypsy goddess, a raven, soaring through a dark night. In search of balance but never quite finding it, but allowing the stars to light my path.

I am here to just Be. To live, inspire, and give. As the greatness becomes known within me, I emulate the greatness in you. I already love you. I'm here take my hand.